My name is Vishalatchi Arunagiri. I have been fighting schizoaffective disorder for the last 10 years. Over the years, I have shown improvement because of medication and therapy. My therapy include flower and gift box arrangement and spiritual practices, such as Prana Violet Healing.
These activities divert my mind and keep me sane. I avoid being alone with people who I sense are judgmental. I am stigmatized by my looks. Apparently, I look normal, but those who know me knows how different I am. I used to have anxiety where everyday, I would throw up and get diarrhoea.
Now, I only have psychosis.
My psychosis can drive me to madness. When I mean madness, I mean I see things that are bizarre and that aren’t there, like ghostly people, devil, God, and people I know. I have a lot of delusions such as getting kidnapped and getting imprisoned. I do not want to slip into my fantasy world, so 11 tried hard to get some sort of income. I tried working for a food joint, but I made many mistakes. I was very slow and got picked on by my boss. After two weeks, I got fired. I could not do the job and it was exhausting, standing all day. I decided I cannot work as a waitress. Then, I applied for various jobs for two months. I got no news from them.
Then, I thought working long hours may not be suitable for me, so created my own freelance business called V Floral to help aid my living expenses.
I pursued this passion of flower arrangements as a therapy to heal my inner consciousness and find solace while creating arrangements of different colours. The colours bring me joy and happiness, and the flowers gives life to my soul.
Pursuing this as a job was also able to make me more organized and helped me out with my creativity. The freshness of flowers are also able to make me calm. From being helpless after so many short courses and being unable to remember what I have learned, I found out that gift boxes is what I can do and remember. It helps and keep me away from the voices in my head.
I have found my passion that leads me to my recovery.
